Pause for just a moment.
Take a deep breath.
Quiet your mind.
Still your soul.
<Space left blank intentionally because if you're like me, it's going to take longer than the time it reads 3 lines to calm and quiet yourself :D >
Ok, ready? Calm? Shoulders unhunched (uh huh, I bet you thought I didn't notice :) ).
Understand one thing: Jesus. Loves. You.
Not "Yes, yes, Jesus loves me, et cetera. I learned that song in Sunday School."
Not "Yes, yes, Jesus loves everyone and I am technically one out of billions that He loves".
No, He loves YOU specifically.
Not "you as part of a group". Not "you as part of a whole".
He loves YOU individually, as if you and He were the only ones in the universe.
He knows how many hairs are on your head right now. (go ahead, run your fingers through your hair. Are any hairs tangled in your fingers? Awesome--do you know that He just updated the count hair on your head RIGHT THEN? I mean it, He really knows that much about you right now specifically! Are you bald? He still knows how many blood cells you have and how many times your heart beats and everything else.)
I don't care if you think you don't deserve it--you're right! Seriously, NONE of us do. (Hint: love given because someone deserves it IS NOT LOVE. That's a transaction.)
I don't care if you don't FEEL it--feel does not equal real.
I don't care what you've done. If you have sins, repent and confess them! It's not like He doesn't know them already, and it's not like the rest of us aren't having to confess our list of sins too :D. There is only one unpardonable sin, and if you committed that, you wouldn't be reading this, longing to know you are loved, hurrying through the list to find that one "thing" that will make you really believe He loves you.
You have all you need to believe that He loves you inside you. He gave you the ability to understand His love. YOU are standing between your understanding and His love!
You know what that means, right?
That you can, right now, shake off those doubts and run to Him! Like, right now! Right this very second!
He never left. His love never wavered. He saw you through time at the moment of the Crucifixion when He died for you. He knew you before the actual planet was made. He formed YOU, specifically. You could have had a different eye color, but He decided on yours. You could have had a different hand dominance. Different skills. Different likes. But He made YOU specifically YOU.
And remember, wwwaaayyy back before there were solar systems and even before the existence of anything, He knew what sins you would commit AND what good things you would do. And He made you. And He loved you!
That ache of loneliness you feel? That is your heart calling to His BECAUSE HE CALLED TO YOUR HEART FIRST.
Remember, we love because He first loved us (1 John 4:19). Take that literally. You cannot love Him without Him loving you FIRST. If you love Him at all, He loves you a million times more. If you long for Him at all, He longs for you a million times more.
You know that moment of anticipation, of excitement, of longing for Him? Yep. That is His feeling for you, too. You are His precious child and He longs to have you trust Him and love Him and be close to Him.
So if you want God, you can be assured that God already wants you. That is really how God-physics works.
So what are you waiting for! You and He both agree that it's better when you're together, so GO! Run to Him! Don't let anyone or anything try to convince you that you are not loved, not even yourself. <3